ive accepted i need to be in a really different field doing something really different. ive struggled my entire career due to some severe ADHD/'tism issues to hold a job for more than a 1-1.5 years, and have recently failed a couple times trying to make software work because my coping mechanisms just aren't where they need to be to be successful as a senior engineer that doesn't need some hand-holding that no one wants to do when someone has 15 years of experience already