Preface: I am not nor have I ever been diagnosed with any personality disorders or mental illnesses.
When I was a catholic, I prayed and read scripture daily, about 45mins to an hour, for ~10 years straight. Another 10 minutes for nightly prayers as well. Unfortunately all I can say is it honestly has transformed me into a schizoid. It has developed myself into being far more comfortable alone than with others. I've gone weeks without talking to people. I've learned solitary coping mechanisms. I've basically been able to perform therapy on myself and manipulate me individually in a way so that I can achieve desired results. I often feel like it's other people who bring about negative results in my life more than the other way around.
I also recognize I'm "wrong" socially in a way that's completely abnormal. But, having tried numerous times to be social, I always end up in the same scenario going back to what I know is tried and true. I'd be curious to know if anyone else has lived a similar way.
When I was a catholic, I prayed and read scripture daily, about 45mins to an hour, for ~10 years straight. Another 10 minutes for nightly prayers as well. Unfortunately all I can say is it honestly has transformed me into a schizoid. It has developed myself into being far more comfortable alone than with others. I've gone weeks without talking to people. I've learned solitary coping mechanisms. I've basically been able to perform therapy on myself and manipulate me individually in a way so that I can achieve desired results. I often feel like it's other people who bring about negative results in my life more than the other way around.
I also recognize I'm "wrong" socially in a way that's completely abnormal. But, having tried numerous times to be social, I always end up in the same scenario going back to what I know is tried and true. I'd be curious to know if anyone else has lived a similar way.